Tuesday, February 12, 2019
Hi everyone! I hope you all are well 🙂. I’m still here and working on my journey to a healthier life. The winter months always tend to be hard for me and I’ve had some struggles with staying on track. The joys of being a food addict. It’s a struggle everyday. But I’m doing good and I’m back on track and trying to regain the control that I’ve seemed to have misplaced lol! When I’m eating clean and staying on track I really do feel so much better both physically and mentally. That is my motivation to regain the control over my inner food demons. Plus I’m not very impressed that my pants are tight and uncomfortable and I refuse to go back to a larger size. So back on track I go so I can be comfortable in all the cute cloths I have! For those that are staying strong on your journey I applaud you, I envy you, and I am so proud of you. For those that are struggling, I completely get it. Changing your lifestyle is hard and it’s a fight every minute of everyday. Find your motivation, find what will help you get back on track. If you fall, get back up, dust yourself off, and tomorrow is a new day. We all got this! One minute, one hour, one day at a time! 💕
By Jes at February 12, 2019
Friday, December 14, 2018
Thursday weigh in…a day late! Down 2.2lbs this week for a total of 220.6lbs lost. Almost back to my pre-thanksgiving weight which was my lowest of 195.4. I am doing 2 shakes a day along with my dinner meal and walking 3-4 miles every day. Slowly but surely I will make my way there. Our Christmas vacation is coming up quickly where we will have 8 days of travel and well, I was going to write probably here, but let’s be honest, definitely there will be some weight gain. I am ok with that though because I have the control and I know when we return I will be right back on track. But for now, 100% protocol and focused and that is what matters! One day at a time!
In love with our Christmas card this year!
By Jes at December 14, 2018
Friday, December 07, 2018
Hi Everyone! I am so sorry for my lack of posting the past month. Between traveling for the Holiday’s and work I have been beyond busy. But, I am still on my journey and want to report that I am doing well! I did have a pretty decent gain over my Thanksgiving break and travels to South Carolina but I came back and went back on protocol 100% and was able to drop the…ahem….15lbs I gained! EEKKK!! How crazy is that, I dropped it in 5 days though. For me, there is such a dramatic water weight gain when I go off protocol its nuts. Then the following weekend I had a Holiday party for my husband’s National Guard unit and I went off protocol for the weekend which resulted in a 5lb gain…I am slowly working that one off. I can report that as of this morning I weighed in at 200.2lbs. Making my way back to ONEDERLAND!
I have a few weeks to get back on track before the next round of travels. I am going to shake things up a bit as well. I am going to do 2 shakes a day, my dinner meal and then an IP snack. I really want to get down as much as possible before traveling south for Christmas.
For my husband’s Holiday Party, it was a semi-formal/formal attire and I wore a beautiful dress. For the first time in my life I honestly felt really pretty. That’s a huge NSV for me. I felt confident which is something I have always lacked in formal attire. I also danced the night away with my husband and some of my favorite ladies and friends! It was such a fun night. The bloat the next day from the two brownies I had though, not so fun! But, I went right back on track and have been since Monday morning! Ketosis here I come!
I hope all is well with all of you and I am going to really try and make a much better effort at keeping you all posted on my journey. We are all in this together! I won’t let the Holiday season give me a 30lb gain like last year. While I will enjoy some treats, control is key this time around!
We deep fried a turkey for Thanksgiving!
By Jes at December 07, 2018
Thursday, October 25, 2018
Thursday Weigh-In! Down 4.8lbs this week for a total loss of 223.2lbs. Drum roll please….current weight is…196.6 pounds. ONEDERLAND!!!!! Holy crap I have actually made into this magical world of ONEDERLAND! I haven’t been under 200lbs since I was in high school. It’s a little surreal. Also, I have noticed my clothes lately are just getting bigger and bigger on me, so I went out to get new pants and I now fit into a size 14! EEEKKK! I haven’t been in a size 14 since probably 10th or 11th grade. That was 20 years ago!
My goal weight is to hit 180lbs and the plan is to maintain that while trying to losing another 10-20lbs through the course of a year and start seeking out plastic surgeons for skin removal surgery. I have worked so hard to get to where I am and I absolutely love all experiences I am enjoying now. But I really still suffer from a huge body dysmorphia. Skin removal probably won’t fix that, but I really have hope that it will help. Plus, I hate wearing compression's and would love to be able to wear a shirt and not have to have a compression tank top on underneath it to hold everything in so that the shirt looks flattering. Also, I hate my legs. I think walking has helped a lot but I would feel a lot better if I could nip and tuck my thighs a bit as well! I am just being honest here! I would love to wear shorts again!
I am still in disbelief that I am finally below 200lbs. I don’t even know how to explain it. I keep thinking I am going to wake up and the scale is going to jump right back up. It’s funny how before I would constantly obsess about going off of protocol, but now, I constantly obsess about staying on, and staying on track. I never thought that I would be able to get into that kind of mindset. I am so close to my goal and I don’t want to mess it up. Thanksgiving is coming up quick too and I am traveling for the Holiday which means I get to go off plan and eat regular people food (LOL NON IP/KETO Food, sugar and carbs!). While I know I will eat carbs and sugar I am confident that I won’t let that deter me and I am going to try my hardest to not totally binge out. I am going to bring some keto friendly snacks along with my IP food to help me stay on track as much as possible. Thankfully we will only be gone for a few days but I am bound and determined not to let that scale go over the 200lb mark. So while I may enjoy some pumpkin pie, it will all be limited quantities and portions! Thank goodness that isn’t for another month and I have some more time to get that scale down even more!
By Jes at October 25, 2018
Thursday, October 18, 2018
Thursday weigh in is here! This is my 121st week since starting my journey! Down 2.2lbs this week for a total loss of 218.4lbs! Current weight is 201.4, I am 21.4lbs away from my 180lb goal! EEKK! My plan is to hit 180lbs maintain that for at least 6 months and then I will start seeking out plastic surgeons for skin removal surgery. I never in a million years thought I would be so close to be in ONEDERLAND!
By Jes at October 18, 2018
Friday, October 12, 2018
Recently a journalist from an independent UK press agency reached out to me and asked if she could write an article on my weight loss story. I typically am not the type of person who enjoys the spotlight. I tend to be pretty reserved especially about my journey. While I have my social media platform for Fatbriety, I don’t really push it out there or try and gain thousands of followers. I typically post once or twice a week between Instagram and Facebook. I had started Fabriety because I wanted to others to be able to see that they can achieve what they thought was impossible because that is exactly what happened to me. I have achieved a weight loss I never in a million years imagined I would be able to do. I never thought I would have more than my friends and family following me. I am beyond grateful for the thousand plus followers I have! It amazes me everyday that people are actually interested and seeing my journey! So thank you all. Your kindness, your support, your love, helps me stay strong every single day.
Back to the artice, the journalist sent me a list of questions and I responded back with my answers and then she wrote her article based on my responses along with her spin on it. The article has been published on the DailyMail.com UK website. I am not sure how I feel about it yet. While I am hopeful that someone will find my story inspiring I am also living in regret for even taking part in it. The headliner for the article is that I was STUCK in a kayak and had to be pulled out. That probably isn’t the headliner I would have gone with, but I didn’t write the article. I personally would have led with, 420lb women knew she was going to die if she didn’t change her life. I think that’s just as dramatic as being stuck in a kayak, and not as embarrassing. But such is life. I did get stuck in the kayak and it was one of the many things that led me to finally make my life change.
She also used my full name and location in the article. When I read my own name I was taken back at first and was like oh shit, now when people google my name, this is what they are going to see. It’s a repeat of the Boston Herald article years ago that was written up about me when I was trying out for the show “The Biggest Loser”. The article and picture they posted of me, was embarrassing. And the comments that people wrote were so mean. It was devastating. Let me stop here though and note why I think people may google me. I don’t want to sound like I think I am some hot shot or super important person LOL! I work for an IT company and I sell IT solutions to businesses. My job is 95% on the phone trying to build out and sell IT infrastructures. I have customers who google my name just to try and put a name to the face. Time and time again I get questions from customers like, hey is this you, I googled you. So my thought was, when they google me, this article could possibly pull up. Should that matter? In the perfect world, no, it shouldn’t matter at all. I have led an incredible journey and I have achieved a weight loss that I should be incredibly proud of. Which I am. But, I am still so embarrassed of my former self and my before pictures. This is a self-image issue that I deal with on a daily basis and I am trying hard at overcoming it, but it’s not easy. When you live your life for so long hating the way you look it’s hard to break down that wall and embrace yourself and your former self. I am proud of the women I am and I am proud of the journey I have led. It’s my life and I am beyond happy with it. But I am human as well. I try and be as real and as honest as possible.
I am going to focus on the positive outcome the article could possibly have. If this article that I dreaded at first could inspire at least one person to see the value they have in themselves and inspire them to make a change that is possibly needed then my job is done.
I do selfishly wish though that she had mentioned Fatbriety in it. While I don’t want 10 thousand followers, I do want to inspire and help as many people as I can who are struggling with food addiction. I just want people to know, if I can do this…so can you. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
So please enjoy and feel free to share the article with every hope that it helps at least one person!
By Jes at October 12, 2018
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